I keep telling myself I am not going to write a new post everyday but then something happens and I feel the need to just write about it. I tell myself its just going to be a short post but once I start I find it hard to stop....
Anyways...
I don't know if anyone has experienced this before but have you ever met someone that just changes your perspective on life? Someone that makes you look forward to each and every day? Someone that makes you smile for no apparent reason? Someone whose mere presence just changes your whole mood?
Well, I have been fortunate enough to meet someone like this recently....not going to mention any names but she knows who she is and maybe she will read this, I don't know...
For the longest time I have given up on relationships and romance because due to some things that happened to me a long time ago I decided that relationships and love don't really exist and also I made some horrible mistakes in my past - but that is a story for another time.
Anyway I met this woman not too long ago and everyday since then has been great, I look forward to waking up in the morning, I find myself thinking about her all day long. Now the tough part about this is: I am a very shy guy and have a hard time talking to other people, ESPECIALLY woman. So I find myself planning out a conversation in my head that I want to have with her but whenever I go up to her all that plans decide to jump out of my brain and leave me standing in front of her with a mouth full of teeth.
That Sucks So Badly though......
She is such an amazing person, even the little I managed to learn about her makes me want to learn more about her, but unfortunately I am just too shy especially around her and I get so nervous I even end up throwing sugar in the bin which was meant for my coffee!!!
I just don't know what it is about her but every time I see her my heart does this little dance in my chest and I feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack or pass out or break something.
She has the most infectious laugh I have heard that makes me wanna laugh every time she laughs.
Now I think there is something wrong with me but it doesn't really take much for me to be attracted to someone, and it has nothing to do with their looks or anything else. I find myself being attracted to something way deeper than the physical level....not sure exactly what that is but I just know that it feels right.
But I don't think that something between us would work out but who knows maybe something does, but if it doesn't I would purely just be satisfied by being friends...
As long as she is around I doubt I will ever have another bad day in my life.....
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